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Cady Weldon
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Cady Weldon
Oh no emo kid!!
Bands
\m/ From Autumn to Ashes, Atreyu, Jimmy Eat World, The Killers, Dashboard Confessional, Smile Empty Soul, Killswitch Engage, Evanescence, Nirvana, Story of the Year, My Chemical Romance, Sum 41, Disturbed, Seether, Green Day, Casting Crowns, Avril Lavigne, Something Corporate, BT, Fall Out boy, From First to Last, Alkaline Trio, Breaking Point, The Early November, Mae, Senses Fail, Rise Against, Foo Fighters, New Found Glory, NOFX, Thursday, Bouncing Souls, Yellowcard, Sugarcult, Go Betty Go, Letter Kills, Matchbook Romance, Fear Before the March of Flames, Simple Plan, Taking Back Sunday, The Casualties, The Academy Is..., Pennywise, Motion City Soundtrack, Silverstein, Youth Group, Gym Class Heroes, Dropkick Murphys, Dresden Dolls, Hawthorne Heights, Pink Floyd, Kill Hannah (THE BAND), Relient K, Coheed and Cambria, Breaking Benjamin, Crossfade, AFI, Underoath, A Perfect Circle, Rammstein, Bowling for Soup, The Yeah Yeah Yeahs, The Who, Greenwheel, Switchfoot, 3 Days Grace, 3 Doors Down, Velvet Revolver, The Rasmus, Papa Roach, Linkin Park, MercyMe, Weezer
Lyrics
Note to Self
From First to Last
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[Friday||July 29th, 2005 @ 1:03pm] |
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AGH. This is the most confusing love triangle I've ever heard of. Chris wants me back, but in the process of trying to figure out how that's going to work out, I ended up talking to David and falling for him. He told me he loved me, and I didn't love him yet, even though I was falling for him. Then he told Chris and Chris wasn't too happy about it. So me and David decided not to go out. So I'm probably gonna go out with Chris, who I love anyways, if we can figure out how to get around the fact that his mom hates me.
ANYWAYS I really miss Jill and I wish I could come home. For good. Gosh. Good news though. They found me a possible home. In St. Clair County. Which is really close to Springville, where my sister lives. But I don't want to get my hopes up because everytime the parents read my file and find out I'm suicidal, they change their mind. Sheesh. I need a home. Soon. I don't wanna go to a ghetto high school. I'd rather be with rednecks than ghettos. SOMEBODY ADOPT ME.
---EDIT---
Y'all check out Jill and Hannah's new community, which is KICKASS.
http://www.livejournal.com/users/beauty_and_mind
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[Monday||July 25th, 2005 @ 12:08pm] |
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The Alabama Writers' Conclave was friggin AWESOME. I wrote FOUR poems in TWO days. That's right, count 'em... FOUR. It was full of inspiration and great tips. I was the youngest there, me being only 14 and the second youngest being 20. So they gave me a prize at the banquet. A HUUUGE book of poetry on healing. It's so awesome. Then I got it signed by the author, the poet laureate of Alabama, Sue B. Walker. She was really cool. She told me if she was still publishing, she'd publish me in a heartbeat. They think I'm THAT good. I have pics, but no way to upload them at the moment. So I will later. So here's my poems:
Imperfections
by Cady Weldon
The flaws that haunt me daily
And the criticism I try to take
All chip away at the confidence
My loved ones try to make
Never good enough
Or so others like to say
When they bash my self-esteem
I lose touch from day to day
My muse begins to fade
And I can't pick up that pen
But I look around, see my friends
And try, try again
We had an exercise where we had to write six words, then pass them to our right. Then, using those six words, we had to form a sestina, which is a poem that has six stanzas and moves the words around in the poem. But the trick was, we had to have one of these six words at the end of each line. The guy on my left passed me these six words:
-Stream
-Smoke
-Wonder
-Handle
-Move
-Fish
And using those words I formed the first stanza of my sestina (I have yet to finish the rest of it):
I stumbled across a hidden stream
Where mist rose from the lake like gunsmoke
I watched in silent wonder
As a man emerged from the mist, gripping a fishing pole handle
And I dared not breathe nor move
I fell in love with a man just watching him fish
Then we had the assignment of writing a poem modeled after George Ella Lyon's poem, "I Am From".
I Am From
by Cady Weldon
I am from love, though we had little, we were abundant in this
I am from Grandaddy's scratchy beard kisses
And neverending Kodak moments
I am from Momma's "Leave your sister alone or you're getting a whoopin'"
I am from the center of attention, because I refused to be otherwise
I am from hot summer days walking to the pool on burning hot blacktop
I am from stir-crazy to boy-crazy
I am from a little bit of everywhere, like a butterfly that flits from flower to flower, I float from place to place, leaving my mark and taking a part of the place with me
And using that, we started our quatern, which is a poem consisting of four stanzas with four lines each. It has eight syllables per line and uses the first line as a refrain. Here is the first stanza of my quatern (which I have yet to complete):
I am from love neverending
I am from cultural blending
I am from no place of my own
There's many places I call home
So I guess that's it for now.
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| TO MY DEAREST JILLIAN |
[Thursday||July 21st, 2005 @ 10:30am] |
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JILLIAN FORGAVE ME AND ALL IS RIGHT WITH THE WORLD. Who needs boys anyways? *does voice* NOT MEHHH. lol, Jill. You forgot to un-ban me from your journal. So I've been hacking into your journal to post comments. :) I LUH YOU. And I'm sooooo sorry I haven't been calling you. I've been having to use my phone time to make plans with my aunt for this weekend. BUT I'M CALLING YOU TONIGHT. Cross my heart, hope to fly.
I had the worsssst dream last night, though. I woke up at ten minutes 'till six and stood in my foster parents' doorway crying and then my foster mom got up and fixed me coffee! She's really cool now. But anywaysss...
I'm out.
--EDIT--
This is for all the girls who have considered suicide but are moving to the ends of their rainbows.
I just saw that and liked it. So... yeah.
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[Wednesday||July 13th, 2005 @ 12:22pm] |
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Jill, I know you don't want to hear this, but please read...
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being a fool to ditch you for Chris and then thinking everything was hunky-dory just because I got off the phone with him when you told me to. I'm sorry for being such a horrible friend to you these couple of years that we've known each other. You're right, I do have a serious problem with boys. I pay way more attention to them than I ever do you. I'm sorry for every second I wasted on a boy when I could have spent time with you. I'm sorry for dragging Hannah into this when it's not her place to be my messenger. I'm sorry for giving up on our friendship when you were still trying to help me change. I'm sorry for hanging up on you when we were on the phone. I'm sorry for not saying goodbye when I left. I'm sorry for being a jealous bitch everytime you and Hannah went to Visonland and expecting you to only go with me. I'm sorry for constantly comparing our friendship to that of yours and Hannah's. I'm sorry for never being there for you like you have been for me. I'm sorry for being apathetic when you were crying at my house. I'm sorry for always making you feel crappy for little stuff. I'm sorry for criticizing you. I'm sorry for every little thing I've ever done to make you feel like you needed to end this friendship. It feels like I need you in my life just to make it through each day. And when we're not speaking, it tears me apart to the point where I'm physically sick. I just got done working and the whole time I felt like throwing up. And after I finish this, I'm going home. But I just can't go on throwing away a friendship that means so much to me. I've never had a friend that stuck with me through all the fights and tears and all the moves I go through. But you have. You've done all that and more. You've comforted me when we've both been going through pain, yet I didn't bother to comfort you back. You've stayed up late on the phone just so you can make sure I'm ok. You've reprimanded me whenever I did something stupid. I know for a fact, that without you, I'd probably be dead or pregnant or out on the streets. You've kept me strong through so much, and I've never told you how grateful I am to have you. You're my God sent angel.
I understand if you don't want to hear me out, or patch up things, or even talk to me. But just know this: I love you. And I always have. You'll still be the driving force in my life. I know that whenever I'm about to do something I'm going to regret, I'll hear your sweet voice in my head and know that whatever I'm doing, I need to stop. And I know that I'll never forget these last couple of years that have matured me and molded me into a better person. But I still have work to do. I've told you time and time again that I'll change. And you'd be skeptical, but you'd stick in there with me. Now I realize I should have never put you through so much. The best thing for me to do right now is sort out my priorities. I know you come WAY before guys. But I also need to figure out how to keep you and them on balance. Probably even tip the scale a bit in your favor. You don't have to believe me. What matters is that I change... to become a better friend and to never, EVER make you cry again. To always be there to make you smile and to be the one that you want to be around. And hopefully one day I'll be able to show you the kind of friendship you've shown me.
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[Saturday||July 9th, 2005 @ 10:16pm] |
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Jill hates me now. I don't really know how I feel about that. I mean, I know I'll never be able to let her go, but I feel so frustrated at the same time. This is all my fault for being a bitch to her while she was here. And then expecting her to be over it as soon as she leaves my house. But... I just don't know. Chris is so amazing, I'd never be able to give him up. I just need to learn how to balance boyfriends and best friends.
I think I'm going to die of food poisoning. I ate old lasagna and now my stomach hurts. It's killing me to not be able to talk to Chris. He's "visting relatives". Chris's friends are so cool. Chris told David my favorite band was From Autumn to Ashes and David was like "Ok, she's cool now." lol. And Chris didn't smoke... FOR ME! I feel luh.
It was so funny, we were watching Live 8 and Pink Floyd came on and my aunt and uncle started dancing and my mom started singing and headbanging and doing air guitar riffs... Then she started swaying with a lighter and clapping... LOUDLY. It was scary. Pink Floyd is so old now. But they're still awesome.
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[Friday||July 8th, 2005 @ 8:26pm] |
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I had fun this weekend. Jill was over here and even though we fought the first few days, the last couple were quite pleasant. We made T-shirts and bracelets and it was really fun. I made her a really cute one. If you could, Jill, take a pic of that and put that on your journal. My grandfather's funeral was today and I kept bursting out in tears at random times. It was so sad. But I'm really, really worried about my mom. She's drunk and she's driving home. I mean, she's like REALLY drunk. But she refused to let anyone drive her. Which is ridiculous. So say a little prayer for her...
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[Tuesday||July 5th, 2005 @ 9:32am] |
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| defeated_lies's LJ stalker is chahatesyou! | | chahatesyou is stalking you because you made a nasty comment on their LJ. They are also stalking the rest of your friends list! |
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[Sunday||July 3rd, 2005 @ 9:52pm] |
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My grandfather died tonight. I was at the hospital and I knew it had happened when the nurse called my aunt's cell and asked to speak to her. I mean, it was inevitable that he'd die. But it's still a shock. I talked to my little sister and she was absolutely distraught. She sobbed and said, "At least he waved goodbye" which made me burst out in tears. She said that because even though he could hardly move, when we last saw him we waved goodbye and we saw his hand move, so we knew that he knew that it was the last time we'd see him. I miss him so much. His scratchy kisses with stubble on his face, how he always made hot dogs and would put onions on them even when we asked him not to, his sweet heart. All the nurses loved him. He was their favorite patient. They called the chaplain up to the room to comfort us, and he said that they NEVER do that so he knew that DaddyLes was someone special. It's hard, but I'll try to be strong. At least he's not hurting anymore. He's dancing with the angels.
R.I.P. Daddyles! We love you and miss you!
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[Wednesday||June 29th, 2005 @ 4:06pm] |
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Spell your name. Put a band for every letter in you name. You Must Like the band you put down. Repost. Smile.
C- Crossfade
A- From Autumn to Ashes
D- Disturbed
E- Evanescence
N- Nirvana
C- Chevelle
E- Everclear
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[Tuesday||June 28th, 2005 @ 1:53pm] |
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Holy fuckin shit. This is so HOT. Click here NOW. *dies*
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[Monday||June 27th, 2005 @ 12:48pm] |
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I cut my hair. No, really. I actually cut it myself. It got WAY too long. In like 3 months it went from above my shoulders to below my boobs. It's a little above my shoulders again but I like it. My mom won't let me get the haircut I want so I'm thinking about doing it myself. The only problem is I need someone else to do it so it can get the right length in the back. Grr.
Well, I'm still with Devin, surprise surprise. And let us PRAY my aunt will get herself down here so I can go home and see my mommy and my JIWWIAN! Oh, and get my TV, beanbag, ottoman, bookcase, etc. My icons are so beautiful now. I love my default one. I had to join a community to get it done but I'm so pleased with the results. It was better than I had hoped for.
I MISS JILLLLL. I was looking through my memory card on my dig cam, and I saw all these old pics of her and I was like *cue homesickness*. And people have been commenting all like, "YOU'LL NEVER SEE DEVIN." But honey, look at his pic. Wouldn't YOU like it if someone that gorgeous even gave you the light of day? And yes, I know it's him. I've seen him on webcam. So NYEH! But he's really sweet.
And my parents caught me cutting, so we'll find out soon if I'm going to an institution or what. Pray that I can stay. Hey, that rhymes. PEACE!
Oh, and I redid my layout. Again. Check it out, I could use some constructive criticism.
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[Monday||June 27th, 2005 @ 11:53am] |
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Thanks so effin much to
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8) jackzter
for making my new icons. They're effin awesome!!!
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[Tuesday||June 21st, 2005 @ 3:51pm] |
 FEAST YOUR EYES ON MY GORGEOUS MAN
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[Tuesday||June 14th, 2005 @ 2:08pm] |
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Oh, and everyone PLEASE go look at my xanga. I made a new beautiful layout, and pleaseeee comment.
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[Tuesday||June 14th, 2005 @ 1:50pm] |
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List 20 friends in no particular order.
1. Jesus
2. Jill
3. Nick W.
4. Hannah
5. Elise
6. Kelsey
7. Ashley
8. Lyssa
9. Courtney G.
10. Danielle G.
11. Courtney M.
12. Murry
13. Erica S.
14. Bo
15. Charlie
16. Tray
17. Taylor W.
18. Chip
19. Leigh Anne
20. Casey
Who is #8 going out with? No clue.
Is #9 a boy or a girl? Girl.
Would #11 and #2? GOD no.
How about #18 and #4? HAHAHHAHA That would be so funny.
What grade is #5 in? 9th.
When was the last time you talked to #12? Oh, God, in an Email about a month ago.
What is #6's favorite band? Foo Fighters?
Does #1 have any siblings? Yes, John.
Would you ever date #3? HELL yes.
Would you ever date #7? lmao, I don't think so.
Is #16 single? No, he's dating #13
What's #15's last name? Wilson
What's #5's middle name? Um. Anne?
What's #10's fantasy? To own Abercrombie and Fitch?
Would #14 and #19 make a good couple? Wow, the guy I'm talking to and my ex? I wouldn't even go there.
What school does #20 go to? Shades Valley
Tell me a random fact about #11? She's a two-faced biatch.
Have you ever had a crush on #16? Not really.
Where does #9 live? Hoover
What's #4's favorite color? Hot pink?
Would you makeout with #14? HELL yes.
Are #5 & #6 best friends? Yes, actually.
Does #7 like #20? Used to.
Does #8 like #19? Um. No.
How did you meet #15? Math Class.
Does #10 have any pets? No clue.
Is #12 older than you? Yep.
Give #13 a hug! Ok, when I go back to school.
Is #17 the sexiest person alive? At one point, before he became a jerk.
I stole this from Elise and Kelsey. They're so cool, I have to be just like them. :)
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[Monday||June 13th, 2005 @ 12:37pm] |
I took this from Jillian, but I thought it'd be interesting to see what people put.
C
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You know... C stands for... A stands for... You can do this. :)
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[Saturday||June 11th, 2005 @ 12:12pm] |
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CITY STAGES BABY!!!! WOOOOOO! Me and Jill are gonna temporarily dye our hair crazy colors and put it up in pigtails, and then wear crazy knee socks with our jeans rolled up. And we're gonna make t-shirts and wear 'em! I am SOOOOO psyched! GET READY CITY STAGES, CAUSE HERE WE COOOOOOOME!!!!
Oh, and I dumped Taylor because he turned out to be a complete jerk. And guess what? No surprise, but he's got ANOTHER gf already. Figures. Some people just never change.
SHOUT OUT TO MY HOMEGUHS JILL AND HANNAH! HOLLLAAAAAAAAA!!!
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[Wednesday||June 8th, 2005 @ 2:09pm] |
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1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are there any memories with me that stand out?
16. Have I impacted you?
19. How often do I cross your mind?
20. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?.
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